yesterday,
i played netball for the last time this year.
i had mixed feelings
4 years of netball ended.

i've decided what i want and what i don't.
yes, finally the thoughts were sorted out.
i want to be a happy person,
and never be sad for more than a day.
now nothing is more important than the big O.
any other things can be shoved aside
no life, maybe.
but studying can be something to be enjoyed as well.
call me insane, for all i care
but at least i know what i want.
when you enjoy something, you'll do it well.
when you have confidence in something,
you excel.
though it doesnt work for all,
school life to me revolves around that.
but of course, i wont go nuts.
there are little breaks to enjoy as well.
let food do its job
food, to me, is an entertainment.
oh, i mean eat in moderation.(:
love too, serves as a motivation
but it isnt reliable,
and shouldnt be the only thing you rely on.
at least for now it shouldnt.

always believe in yourself
if you havent,
its time to do so.

having too much(or isit many?) thoughts
think think think
maybe it makes me more sensible
haha.

pendulumbobified.
tomorrow will be a better day!

the tide came and went
but when it returned again, it stayed there
the waters washed my mind
the wind blew
it took away my mood
i felt so lost
never once i felt so lost..



anyway, B'DIV lets jiayou for the nationals.
maybe it will turn out to be another history?
well, i suppose as long as we play our best, there's nothing to regret(:
b div all the way!




minutes tick by...

i love haagen-dazs ice cream.

homework is drowning.
stress is overpowering.
ropes are breaking.
back is aching.

salt, in excess.
happiness, limited.
never again i'll wish for something i know i couldnt get.
i want an eraser.

i feel so lousy

everyday seems to be chionging day.
wake up go school come back do work sleep
and boom term one is over.
a few more months to the BIG DAY.
how wish time could pass by more slowly.
i need time to settle down.
there isnt an optimum hard work level.



we are north zone THIRD.
woohoo.
gonna collect our trophies in 2 days' time.
ITS GONNA BE A REALLY NICE DAY.
hehheh. (:

the headache spell is back again ):

bearbearism (x
haha

the sense of urgency is not there.
just like now.
unmotivated.

cross country 2nd! (x
netballers flood the trophy table (:
yay, im so proud of all netballers!


sigh,
what can i be thinking about now?
aiai, where are you?
i love my motivation (:
i love you!